Monday, January 26, 2009

Hang on to those eggs woman!

So, I got my moon back.
16 months without it, and i really must say, I haven't missed it one iota. As sacred as it is, there has been no love lost, or tears shed, or long nights pining away for it. No poems written, or songs inscribed.
I about shed some tears today, when I saw it's return. Then another thought,
well, I'm not pregnant. haa! haa!!!

Yes folks, my eggs are back into circulation,
um.... yey?

According to my old OB nurse, that is a yey! She did tell me that if we were still planning on not having any more children to be on guard and use birth control.. sista you DON'T have to tell me twice, I've SEEN what happens when you "think" having unprotected sex while breastfeeding is "safe". (Not to ME personally, just many of those around me, who now have Many little ones around them.) She was VERY proud of me for STILL breastfeeding,and gave me many kudos. I always find it amusing that breastfeeding this "long" is considered heroic status; for me there was no other option. It simply how it was going to be.

See, I was worried when I saw that I was ovulating again, that it would mean i was going to either stop producing milk soon, or that she was going to wean herself. NOW THAT would make me CRY!!!! But the nurse said no, I will still be ok in that department. WHEW!!!

So, that is the big news of the day.. as my day draws to a close and my cramps start to creep in a bit. Oh how I haven't missed those. They will pass, as will my ambivalence to the return of my moon, I will once again be grateful and treat it as the sacred thing it is. Everyone is a bit slow to come back from a vacation after all.

And as far as having more children, I'm ambivolant on that as well. We first said no, due to my family history and age... (hey, there is history there, so before you start snorting in protest.. ask for the story.)But I did LOVE being pregnant, and I was a beautiful, sexy, pregnant woman, I'd love to be pregnant again. It was easy and fun, and I'd love to give birth again, it was also easy and fun.. and all natural.

But I think about turtle right now, and she is so perfect in all her her-ness. I love being able to spend as much of my devoted time just on her. I love our "us-ness". So for now, it will have to wait. There are a lot of things to consider beyond just being a Sexy, pregnant woman who likes giving birth; and thankfully, now that my eggs have put themselves back into circulation, we have that option.


PS: I was also thinking, "Well now that I have my moon back, maybe my hormones will get back in line and I'll lose some weight." Then I said to myself, "Oh who are you kidding, that isn't baby weight.. that's LAZY weight."

See people, some of you think I'm brutally honest with you, well, I'm JUST as honest with myself. And I think I'm highly hilarious as well.

Friday, January 23, 2009

As the snow falls.....

Turtle and I spent every waking moment outside yesterday, knowing the temperature was going to drop today. It isn't bad out there right now, not that frigid stuff we were having.
But we had so much fun in the sun and playing all over. We walked to the library and got some new books, and the lady who checked us out fell in love with turtle. Of course, she is turtle after all, I dare anyone NOT to fall in love with her!
Then last evening, we went to a dinner hosted by mihigna's co worker; everyone loves her there. The guy who was hosting had not yet met her, needless to say, he is now a fan! He likes the fact that she speaks Lakota and is bilingual.

The temperature has dropped significantly since I've started this post, and now it is much to cold to be outside. Turtle is greatly dissapointed. I will have to come up with new and interesting things to do inside. The excitement of coloring, playdough and painting is wearing thin.

Maybe we should move onto sculptures.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

How I spent my inauguration Day

I totally MISSED the swearing in of the best president to date!! I have been waiting...WAITING, for this day!!! If I'd had more gumption, I would have been throwing an inauguration party.. except I was too lazy. Or too busy, one of the two.

And just why did I miss said event?
Well, because I was being a turtle momma. You see, the weather was 50* today!!! So you can imagine, turtle and I were out in it, soaking up some much needed vitamin D!! And as the sun sets, I am a very happy Winyan!!!!

We swung on the swing, walked around the neighborhood, she walked on her two little turtle feet, (such cute ones too!) and occasionally rode/pushed the winnie the pooh car about. It was big fun! We watched Maga's fly over, tons and tons of them!!! She called to them, and waved. We petted the rogue neighborhood dog. (No worries, he was nice, I just call him rogue because he is away from his house more than he is at it.) Then we did some more swinging and had a ride about in the stroller.
It was really cool to see her observe her world now, now that she can walk on her own, and notice things she never noticed before, like power lines and tree tops.
Then her Unci M came over, and won her over with mc'd's french fries, her fave! Then later, took her out for ice cream! She was a very happy turtle. Then we came home and turtle crashed! She took a good long nap and woke up ready for more play! I have these flash cards for her, because she loves to match and sort, so we played a game of that, and then she walked me around and around the house by the hand. As we were walking back through the kitchen, Mihigna said, "She is very bonded with her Ina." That made my heart warm. I love her so. I get all goofy and nutty when I talk or think about her, as I do with her At'e. What can I say, that's turtle love.

So, yes, I missed the swearing in, but I wouldn't have traded my day for anything.

Monday, January 19, 2009

I"m here

There has been so much going on, i haven't had time to get on here.
The weather has been much warmer, it's sad when 40 * is considered weather appropriate for playing outside. But it has been, so we have been out! We even got to go hiking on saturday!! I was so happy! Pics to follow.
On Sunday, we had lunch wiht the IL's and spent the day up there, had a blast! I got to watch most of the inagural concert. Man, that was so powerful, it brought tears to my eyes! I didn't get to see all of it, because turtle had to go down for a nap. But, when we got home that night, it was being re played, so I got to see the end. Man, after obama spoke, and Beyonce' sang the anthem, I really started crying, it was so powerful! I get teary-eyed easily at powerful things. The whole concert, program was great, there were many times of tearyness for me. I love Obama, if I ever met him, I totally give him (and his family) a HUGE Hug!! He/They seem so huggable.


Our little turtle continues to be amazingly wonderful,kissable and huggable! Ohh, I can never get enough of her!! She's soo awesome. And she continues to be the funniest person I know, in the smallish category. I could have named her funny turtle instead.

Anyway, there were other bits of news, important things to say, but they take energy that I don't have. They are deep things, and I'm not in the mood for deep right now. I will come back and post them later.

Ok,
for now,
toksa,
MBB

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Getting out





here are some photos i took while I escaped the house a few times this last week. It is still miserably cold, but Turtle asks everyday to go out, so we jump in the car and drive about.. it at least gets us out.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Going Home

I love this video,it is so powerful that it makes me cry.
Morongo Oyate, Tatanka pilamayaye tanka ki kagli!


This makes me laugh non stop, to the point that I cry!!

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Up Late, Important UPDATE and a boot love affair

It's almost two a.m. I can't sleep.
I made the mistake of drinking a Pepsi tonight, and forgetting that the caffeine keeps me up. I haven't drunk Pepsi in awhile, so it really revs me up now. My body is really sensitive like that. So, I'm awake.
My update is that I'm going to be changing my blog url in a few weeks. It will still be here at blogspot.. but I'm going to change the actually address part. I have to check and make sure the one i want is available. I will let you know about it, the closer it gets.
Speaking of letting you know about things as they happen. This is way old news now, well for me. I talked about a month ago about the film treatment I was writing and I didn't want to say too much. Well, it's not going to happen. We didn't get funded. We sent the treatment in, but they didn't fund us, so it's a no go. Which is OK with me, because now we can just work on it more and send it out. But I'm also disappointed, because I could really have used that money right now. The situation was, a film maker approached me about buying the rights to one of my pieces, and I was a little skeptical; until I saw some of his work, talked to him and we stared doing some co writing. Then, I saw how amazing he was, how well he nailed the piece right on, and so after that I agreed. So, we started working together on this film which was a really great opportunity for me, since i had never gotten to see that side of screen writing. I took a course in it at USD once, but that didn't teach me anything.
Even though the film isn't going to happen right now, the good news is that I got a new, really great friend as a result of it, and a bigger network.

I tell you, some days, it is REALLY hard to not justsell out. But slow and steady.. and the rewards will be greater. Everything I've ever gotten that I've cherished has been slow and steady.
So, that is one long overdue update.
WE haven't gotten any further on the house issue. Part of us does just want to say heck with it, and go buy a modular home. But then I realize how very toxic that decision would be. So, I have to look into them first. Which is what is on my to-do list tomorrow, to call the people in Wnnr; and see what I can find out. I wish those people would just call me back and tell me whether or not they are willing to build the bale house for us or not. Just so we know. I'm getting to the point where I'm about ready to go all stalker on the one guy and follow him from site to site, until he tells me yes he will build it, or no, he won't. I'm good either way, just tell me.

This is another reason i have not been on here in awhile. I'm doing some battling. See, I've been cooped up in some form of indoors for many weeks now, and it's wearing on me. At least when I get to go to the IL's baby and i get a change of scenery, but it still isn't outside. I need to be outside!! I need to go for my walks, I need my nature... I need my fresh air. I'm getting muchly blah without it. I'm starting to understand a little what those people with SAD go through maybe. I fear these bitter cold temps will go on for a long time, with global warming and all, mihigna says no, but I'm getting doubtful. We have not had weather that was baby or adult appropriate for at least a month or more. We have had a few days...one here, another there, but nothing consistent. I don't want to raise my daughter in a world where the winters are too cold for her to play outside. Na uh..I've got big plans for us. Snow angels, winter hiking, skating on the ponds, sledding, etc.

I remember when we lived here a few years ago.. I was hiking everyday throughout winter, ok, well, most of it. And we had snow.. but they were still bearable. Not this freeze your face off cold.
Ok, I've run out of things to say... and I'm actually starting to get sleepy.

For now, oh! Wait!
First, a story wrought with cuteness! It's a turtle story, so how could it be anything but? HA! HA!
Turtle has had a growth spurt and outgrew her shoes, so we went to get more. Now, for those of you not in the loop, her very first pair of "shoes" were these cute pink and white soft soled things with little horses on them, that her La La bought for her when we first moved back here. She LOVED those things, wore them all the time and when she outgrew her first pair, she refused to wear anything else with the exception of real moccasins. So, when it was time, we bought the next size up in the horse shoes. Same reaction. So, I figured this time, why mess with the pattern? Except, the store didn't have those shoes in her size. UH OH! Well, the lady tried to get me to buy her some tennis shoes, um, NO!!!

So, I took her over to the Minnetonka moccasin display, and asked her which pair she liked best.. she grabbed the pink ones, of course. But then....
she saw the boots.
Pink boots.

She grabbed them, sat down and proceeded to put them on. We, (the kind, employee, who fell madly in love with turtle, and I) got them on her and she was as pleased as punch. Now, pay heed to the fact that this child has never had hard soled shoes on her tiny turtle feet. No, she was born into a pair of moccasins made just for her, and has had several pairs since then. She went from those to the "white man's" moccasin, (the above mentioned horse shoes.)
So, watching a little turtle wobble around in a hard soled shoe, was a bit funny and cute, to watch. She looked drunk. But see, if I haven't said it before, I'll say it now. She's a mini me. We don't know defeat. She'd wobble, fall down, try to figure out how to get back up in those hard things, get up and go again. All the while looking back at me, huge smile on her face, proud of herself and her amazing prowess. I, of course, was grinning like the madly-in-love, my-child-is-the-most amazing-thing-I've-ever-laid-eyes-on, glowing Ina, that I am.
But, she mastered it. She wore those boots out of the store.

Oh, the love affair with boots that all children seem to go through. I did, Mihigna did. There is nothing like your first pair of cow(person) boots.
Aaaah.. it almost makes me want to go get a pair for myself... then I remember how I ended up on the brink of ruined feet. Wait, was it the boots, or the figure skates? ... Anyway...

So, turtle is in love with the boots, wears them all over, has totally mastered her ability to navigate in them. (Cuz she's the most awesome turtle of them all!!) And she totally looks styling in them no matter what she wears.
Tonight, I got home from my "me" time, she came running out to greet me, jumped in my arms, (such a perk of motherhood, I tell you, it's better than a dog.) and she was wearing a onesie, and those boots. TOO CUTE!!!!

Oohh, I could go on about her for hours. There are only two people I could constantly talk about and never get bored, or run out of things to say..much less ever stop glowing and smiling at the mere thought of them.
That's Mihigna, and Cunksi.

Now THAT'S turtle love....

and it doesn't get any better than that.

Friday, January 2, 2009

December post make up!




Here is a pretty, (and a bit blurry) sunset from the beautious land of SD..oh wait, I'm in NE.
But I'm close enough to SD, to say it is SD. We have the best sunsets (and sunrises) in SD. (and the northern tip of NE.)
Geez, I can hardly wait to get across that state line... I'm NOT a husker!

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Funny wacipi games, and funny bad texting

Today was so fun.
We went to the pow wow, and I saw a few people there I knew and haven't seen in a long time. One of the people was this girl who was my teen miss Indian Day when I was Miss Indian Day. That was really great to see her, since it has been years!!!

Anyway, they were waiting for grand entry to start and to kill the time they played a game. So they went around the room, pulling people out at random, they grabbed my MIL, but she told them to take me, so I went. There were eight of us, and we had to pick a partner, so I picked my friend, Ista Skan, and then they told us what we had to do.

While the drum played a song, we had to dance for the first push up,( a push up is like a verse) then when the second came around, the first person on the team had to run down to the other end of the room and drink a pop completely then run back, so the second person could run down and had to eat an orange completely. So, Ista Skan said she'd drink, and I'd eat. Ok, I was fine with that. But before we started the other girls said:
"You said we had to do a PUSH UP?!"
We all really laughed and then the guy said: "NO, you have to dance for the first push up"

So the drum started and we danced and then Ista Skan took off and guzzled that drink, but she almost spit it back up cuz she was drinking so fast! Then she finally got most of it, but some came back out, you know how pop bites back sometimes. And that got all over the floor, but she finished and ran back to me. So I ran down there and when i got down there, i realized, it wasn't an orange... it was a GRAPEFRUIT!!!!

So I started peeling it, and trying to eat it fast. I was doing pretty good, but then i looked down the room at S and I started laughing and had to stop eating or I was gonna choke! There was a guy on my right and two girls on my left, so i really started eating fast. the guy on my left finished, so then i tried to eat faster, but one girl got done before me and then i finished, and finally the last girl got done. We didn't win anything, but it was really fun!

A.Wapostan ska came up and asked me after wards how the grapefruit was, I said "good", but what I should have said was, "Big." But it was REALLY fun!

We went back to the IL's house, but turtle was really tired, so we headed home not long after that. It was a really great time though, we really had a great time.

We first went to the pow wow in town, but no one was there, and there were W.I.C's* (Wild Indian Children) running around and they hit my MIL in the back of the head with a football, and then kept throwing it around. So we left and went to SF, everyone was there, all the drums and people. That is the older one anyway, the one that has been around forever. I'm glad we all went, well, me turtle, mighigna and MIL.

Now we are home, turtle is asleep, she has been fighting it all DAY!! Mihigna and I hung out and had some quality MA-PA time.

In funniness:

Earlier, I was sending some text messages and I was really messing them up. This is what they read...

to Mihigna: "Out the soup."

to MIL: "kaeen stayed at deciza hmaz hoist."


Needless to say, they bounced back to me. I read them and burst out laughing because they were so funny, and so off!!
I haven't quite gotten down texting on my new blackberry and i certainly can't text when I'm trying to keep one eye on turtle.

A new year, a lot of nothing...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

We didn't stay up to ring in the new year, again. We have not stayed up till midnight in quite a few years. We're old farts. Ha! Ha!
Now that we are parents, we are REALLY old farts...LOL.

We spent the night up north and had a lot of fun and some yummy food. We woke up to snow, which is gorgeous because out here in the country, it looks magical. The snow lays on the hills and dusts the cedar trees.
We tried to take turtle out for a bit this morning, but it was much too cold. The wind that never ceases to blow here. Living in town, it is easy to forget about the wind. Such a downer, living in town. I can hardly wait to get out of town, be back in the open.
I want to go take pictures today, but I don't know if I will be able to. I really long to go hiking, but not sure if that will happen either. The New Year's Wacipi is going on here in town, and so we will definitely go to that..
Since christmas, time has just seemed to be a blur; it was here, then gone, and even though there was a week in between, I can't really say we did anything fun. I resorted to putting turtle in the car and going for a drive just so we could get out of the house. There were so many beautiful pictures to be taken, but I couldn't stop or get out because turtle was with me, and it was too cold for her to be out in it.

I'm just blabbing on and on wiht no real point. But, I wanted to get a new post up, so you would all know I was still here.

I hope your holidays were good, and I will come back when I have some thing good to say.
I'm way behind on my december posts, I have them, they are just sitting in my camera. I'll get them up and there will be a plethora of pictures.